SCHOOL HAVE START!

hye elmo...
school has starting again.. this year will be war year for me and friends...
we will sit for SPM!!! OWH NO!!!

i know its like years since i being blogging last time..
i just don't have enough time to do everything.. the time seem tik tok king very damn fast... sigh..
homework being like mountains since the first day school... all the teachers seem to be very fierce.. some of them also start to load us with homework although last year they don't really teaching us in real words....

i still trying to recall back all the last year topic... i'm going to study really hard!!now i learn to not messing with time because now, i think the time are taking revenge on me....
the first day the school start.. the first thing i do, find my friends..
i'm really missing them though i think they never even remember... huhuhu T__T...

this year is my last year to be in school...
i want to cherish this year and making as much as memory in with my friend and i really hoping the memory will be the happy one.... daaa.. see you next blog!!

HURTING AGAINT!

hua!!!
it's hurt!!

my sis just bullied me yesterday and now i got bruise at my knee..

its all about the stupid phone!

she told me she lost her phone.. so i help her to find it..
so at last ai make a miss call at her phone and we find the phone behind our bed..
so she tried to grab it..
but her hand can't reach it....
so i said to her 'angkat je la tilam nilam nieyh'
then we tried to lift it..
woah!! the bed was so heavy...
because of that see will lift it up and i will grab the phone..
because she couldn't hold it anymore..
i just fly off but my knee smash the my 'birai katil'
and now i got bruise at my knee...
my sis just lough and pretend she innocent..
she don't even feeling bad for me..
ibu! when you want to comeback!
she bullied me again!

this the prove!..
but i think my bruise is funny thought

MY SORROW DAY!

huhuhuhuhu.. cry again.. not because of missing my mom..
but because of stupid digimon cartoon that i watch...
i'm so touch by the character... he 'korbankn' his life just to tell them the digimon scissors gonna attack the true world and i like his words"show your kindness with the light of gold" its has deep meaning...

the second time i cry because i listen to super junior m-blue tomorrow..
at first i dont really understand it because they using mandrin.. so tried to find the lyric and translation.. the lyric really have beautiful meaning... such a nice song to hear with a great vocal performance by Kyuhyun, Ryewoook and Zhao Mi... and i'm really touch by the tears of Hankyung in the mv.. it really look like he loosing her... and their mv also really good..a not like my country mv because it not so good.. most of my country mv will be just laying in bed, looking at mirror or hugging the trees.. but this mv really good... you'll be able to felt their sadness... and the graphic also very good especially went they burn the ring, phone, letters, rosses, sand watch and other things that represent love.. but if they truly gonna burn it.. just give the phone and the couple rings to me! the ring look cute though.. and the phone is not something i got every day...
their aw-fit in the mv also look smart but simple.. just some skinny pant, long sleeve 'kemeja', bow/tie and vest.. but they look gorgeous...



good isn't it??

Shhhh!

why i put the title like that??

I really don't want many people that i knew read this blog...
because i don't want they hurting because of my words..
i'm not going to pretend i'm such a goody good girl here.. i just want to write what i want to..
that why i don't want it..

maybe i'll be using bad words... but that how i felt...
just some of my friends that i believe won't hurt because of my word and i'm really trusting them only will know about this blog i create..

its not like i don't believe all my friends... instead... I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!!
but now, its about who will be hurt if they read my words to them...
i know not many people visited my blog, thats why i want to write it..
so i want this to be my place to say something that i couldn't say.. so only someone with cold heart or not easy to hurt can only read this.. so Forgive Me!...

THIS WEEK POST!

hello!
long time no see!!

i decide to call the readers elmo..because i;m wearing elmo short pants now..

this week...
i become very sensitive person...
i like to cry.. even for little thing..
i was cry like hell went my sis talk about her office mate lost his parent at Mekah..
suddenly i remember my parent.. and i just cry and cry..
the second time i cry like that is went i'm calling my parent.. i tried to call them about 4 days but i cannot get in touch with them...
but i heard my dad's voice.. i began to cry again...
he said his phone battery was damaged so he buy two new cell phone.. off course one for him and one for my mom.. so he cannot set the new phone so that why he couldn't call me...
after that my sis talk to my mom.. but when she talk, she saw my face become red and my tears just burst out... so she said to my mom "ibu, ada org dah start nangis dah. bek ibu ckp ngan dia" and my mom said to her"dia rindu la tue" then my sis just past my phone to me again.. and this time my dad spoke.. i just cry and no words came out from my mouth.. my dad ask why i'm crying and just said its nothing... but i know he must herd me cry.. i always cry when i talk to my dad.. evenif he when away for a few days.. so he must know me already...

next...
well.. like other days.. i been lonely again but this week my adk angkat come to my house to company me..
she just got back yesterday..
and now i being lonely again..
i think that why i'm being easy to cry.. because i were left alone to much.. sometime my sis in law call me.. and sometime my sis at K.L call me to.. but.. they will not calling me every day just to company me.. sometimes my friend call me and massage me.. but not every time they can do that..
so i were left alone again....
huhuhuhhuuhhh...
wanna cry again....

so lonely..
miss my parrent...T_____T

MY DAY..

hello..

today i start the really late..
i woke up at 2pm!
a new record for me...
last night we stay up until 4am..
so that why i'm late...

i think korean drama really give me bad influence..
i stayed up late because i'm to excited to get from my computer..
my sister also have been complaining lately..
she really mad because she catch me stayed up until 5am in front my computer..
so.. today i tried to sleep at 1am..
still late ha?
but i tried ok!

WAT A BORING SCHOOL HOLIDAY!

BORED!
that the words in my life now..
usually my parent bring to some place in holiday..
at least the bring me to my village..

huahuahuahu :(

sad...
no one want to company me at home..
what a boring day..
no one to talk..
just look at myself in mirror..
and talk without any feed back from the mirror..

watch tv..
just change the channel every 5 second..
don't have any interesting show..
just so many lame drama...
what a waste of time..

open computer..
upload the same korean drama i have watch again and again..
until i remember all the english subtitle..
read the same super junior news..
veryveryvery bored...

could someone just took me away from this boring world...

i want to go out to carre4 but my sis just lock me in the house..
i felt like being held in jail..
just the different my jail is..
it has tv.. bed, kitchen, computer,tv, video player...
sounds like home is it?
yeah..
i have my own personal version of jail...

jail..
it represent loneliness..
my boring life..
the life that to over protected by my siblings..
not my mom and dad..

ps:missing them again T____T