HURTING AGAINT!

hua!!!
it's hurt!!

my sis just bullied me yesterday and now i got bruise at my knee..

its all about the stupid phone!

she told me she lost her phone.. so i help her to find it..
so at last ai make a miss call at her phone and we find the phone behind our bed..
so she tried to grab it..
but her hand can't reach it....
so i said to her 'angkat je la tilam nilam nieyh'
then we tried to lift it..
woah!! the bed was so heavy...
because of that see will lift it up and i will grab the phone..
because she couldn't hold it anymore..
i just fly off but my knee smash the my 'birai katil'
and now i got bruise at my knee...
my sis just lough and pretend she innocent..
she don't even feeling bad for me..
ibu! when you want to comeback!
she bullied me again!

this the prove!..
but i think my bruise is funny thought

MY SORROW DAY!

huhuhuhuhu.. cry again.. not because of missing my mom..
but because of stupid digimon cartoon that i watch...
i'm so touch by the character... he 'korbankn' his life just to tell them the digimon scissors gonna attack the true world and i like his words"show your kindness with the light of gold" its has deep meaning...

the second time i cry because i listen to super junior m-blue tomorrow..
at first i dont really understand it because they using mandrin.. so tried to find the lyric and translation.. the lyric really have beautiful meaning... such a nice song to hear with a great vocal performance by Kyuhyun, Ryewoook and Zhao Mi... and i'm really touch by the tears of Hankyung in the mv.. it really look like he loosing her... and their mv also really good..a not like my country mv because it not so good.. most of my country mv will be just laying in bed, looking at mirror or hugging the trees.. but this mv really good... you'll be able to felt their sadness... and the graphic also very good especially went they burn the ring, phone, letters, rosses, sand watch and other things that represent love.. but if they truly gonna burn it.. just give the phone and the couple rings to me! the ring look cute though.. and the phone is not something i got every day...
their aw-fit in the mv also look smart but simple.. just some skinny pant, long sleeve 'kemeja', bow/tie and vest.. but they look gorgeous...



good isn't it??

Shhhh!

why i put the title like that??

I really don't want many people that i knew read this blog...
because i don't want they hurting because of my words..
i'm not going to pretend i'm such a goody good girl here.. i just want to write what i want to..
that why i don't want it..

maybe i'll be using bad words... but that how i felt...
just some of my friends that i believe won't hurt because of my word and i'm really trusting them only will know about this blog i create..

its not like i don't believe all my friends... instead... I LOVE ALL OF THEM!!!
but now, its about who will be hurt if they read my words to them...
i know not many people visited my blog, thats why i want to write it..
so i want this to be my place to say something that i couldn't say.. so only someone with cold heart or not easy to hurt can only read this.. so Forgive Me!...

THIS WEEK POST!

hello!
long time no see!!

i decide to call the readers elmo..because i;m wearing elmo short pants now..

this week...
i become very sensitive person...
i like to cry.. even for little thing..
i was cry like hell went my sis talk about her office mate lost his parent at Mekah..
suddenly i remember my parent.. and i just cry and cry..
the second time i cry like that is went i'm calling my parent.. i tried to call them about 4 days but i cannot get in touch with them...
but i heard my dad's voice.. i began to cry again...
he said his phone battery was damaged so he buy two new cell phone.. off course one for him and one for my mom.. so he cannot set the new phone so that why he couldn't call me...
after that my sis talk to my mom.. but when she talk, she saw my face become red and my tears just burst out... so she said to my mom "ibu, ada org dah start nangis dah. bek ibu ckp ngan dia" and my mom said to her"dia rindu la tue" then my sis just past my phone to me again.. and this time my dad spoke.. i just cry and no words came out from my mouth.. my dad ask why i'm crying and just said its nothing... but i know he must herd me cry.. i always cry when i talk to my dad.. evenif he when away for a few days.. so he must know me already...

next...
well.. like other days.. i been lonely again but this week my adk angkat come to my house to company me..
she just got back yesterday..
and now i being lonely again..
i think that why i'm being easy to cry.. because i were left alone to much.. sometime my sis in law call me.. and sometime my sis at K.L call me to.. but.. they will not calling me every day just to company me.. sometimes my friend call me and massage me.. but not every time they can do that..
so i were left alone again....
huhuhuhhuuhhh...
wanna cry again....

so lonely..
miss my parrent...T_____T

MY DAY..

hello..

today i start the really late..
i woke up at 2pm!
a new record for me...
last night we stay up until 4am..
so that why i'm late...

i think korean drama really give me bad influence..
i stayed up late because i'm to excited to get from my computer..
my sister also have been complaining lately..
she really mad because she catch me stayed up until 5am in front my computer..
so.. today i tried to sleep at 1am..
still late ha?
but i tried ok!

WAT A BORING SCHOOL HOLIDAY!

BORED!
that the words in my life now..
usually my parent bring to some place in holiday..
at least the bring me to my village..

huahuahuahu :(

sad...
no one want to company me at home..
what a boring day..
no one to talk..
just look at myself in mirror..
and talk without any feed back from the mirror..

watch tv..
just change the channel every 5 second..
don't have any interesting show..
just so many lame drama...
what a waste of time..

open computer..
upload the same korean drama i have watch again and again..
until i remember all the english subtitle..
read the same super junior news..
veryveryvery bored...

could someone just took me away from this boring world...

i want to go out to carre4 but my sis just lock me in the house..
i felt like being held in jail..
just the different my jail is..
it has tv.. bed, kitchen, computer,tv, video player...
sounds like home is it?
yeah..
i have my own personal version of jail...

jail..
it represent loneliness..
my boring life..
the life that to over protected by my siblings..
not my mom and dad..

ps:missing them again T____T

last day!

morning beauty!

I got up from sleep at 7 today...
my sis disturbed my sleep..
i got sleep at 4am.. now already 10:21am but I fell really sleepy..

when I woke up... I just open my computer and upload korean drama You're Beautiful..
this really good drama.. I'm adore Jeremy so much.. he make me smile every time I saw him on the screen..

sorry for not update this past few days..
It not uncomfortable to me to write...
but i want to share last day stories...

last day were very tiring day for us...
my friend eqah make some fest at her house to celebrate birthdays..
so my and my crew when to her grandfather house... qihah took me at home at 2pm and we when to take man her house after that..
when we reach, ecah, eija,joyah,and fatin and already there.. after that syud an iylia..
we eat some foods(the foods is delicious) when shamiera n cipah attend to the house.. after that eqah brought us to titi at her house to take some photo.. after posing for awhile joyah and fatin want o get back home..
so the rest of us continue to the landasan kereta api.. we had such a long walk together.. but its fun anyway because we rarely got chance to gather up together..
after took some picture at the landasan, we when back to eqah grandfather house..
but, an interesting tragedy happen.. when we took the road at smk berapit to got back, we must walk through chinese village.. there were many dogs barking at us..
me and cipah walk at the back and ecah eija n iylia at the front.. when we saw the dog.. me, cipah, miera, syud and man don't want to walk at he road while ecah, eija, and iylia want to walk through it..
at first they only saw a dog bark at them.. so the still want to continue while the rest of us at the back already run.. we got away from the area... i saw ecah, eija and iylia run.. it funny how to see the cipah, and meira run with their high heels and eija, ecah and iylia run because the dog brought its geng...

Its a very unforgettable for us.. not just we got to gather together but we have been chase by dog and walk a very long road! nice guys.. maybe we can do it again someday...

MONEY..

when we talk about money..
I will see foods, cloths, cars, house, laptop and many more..

I don't if it just me feeling that I'm such a chip skate.. but shud will always says "daa, you're a chip skate, please!''.. but i think i'm really a stingy girl..
I don't like shopping brand things.. some of my cloths also i buy at morning market...
i also don't like to buy new digitals thing..although sometime I felt like to buy it. but i always change my mind... I never change my handphone, never change my disk player...
just my dad always bought thing that i will always use such my computer and camera..
but it will take years before my dad bought another one.. usually he only bought new thing if the old one cannot be repair again.. i also never top up my phone... my dad will only give us 3o ringgit per month but usually i only use 10 ringgit per month.. just this time it seems not enough because i making long distance call to my parent..

sometimes i think maybe ways I raising up make me like this..
It nice thing because you will know how the poor people do.. and you can save up.. i being save up about 3000 just by myself without using my parent money.. my sis quiet jealous to see my account.. we have to save up for brighter future..

for now my aims is to buy the audi 95000 usd without taxes..
i think it will be half million if buy in Malaysia.. that car really amazing.. i cant think any word to it.. first time i seen it in someone blog wrote about super junior car.. all of them have fancy cars.. but siwon is the most outrageous one.. his parent bought him audi for PRESENT!! no wonder because his family own the biggest hypermarket in seoul, Korea.. leetuk hyung have BMW, heechul hyung have pegeut(dont know the spelling) kangin have lexus and eeuhyuk have hyundai limited one.. the really no 1 artis in asia! hwaiting super junior!

ALONE AGAIN

I hate to be lonely..
but what to do..

missing my parent again.. when would they come back?? T____T

today I'm just lying in bed until 1 pm...
I couldn't wake up..
my body can't just take it..
since my mom and dad left me.. my body really make me mad...
It being sick since my parent when away..
now I got flu again.. I think its only last two week since i had flu..
but not only me... my parent also got flu.. my dad is the worst.. my mom told me his nose bleed until his ihram were full with blood because he couldn't stand the heat..

but i think I'm just missing them.. I always got flu when I'm not with my parent.. almost all trip i went, i will got flu. I also don't know why...

trust me.. flu is not good thing..
please took care you health and don't be like me..
because i really hate to take medicine (it taste sucks)...
to you medicine if you sick!

LONELY

I'm missing school already..
missing my friend..
missing the teachers..
missing my desk..
missing the chalk..
missing the black board, LCD, computer, lab, class, and all the thing and workers in my school..
I MISS ALL OF YOU!

Most of my teens life being spending in this place..

let me tell my experience of my fist day as a High school students!

my first day..
my dad send me to school... becouse I'm the first year student so I'll be going to school in afternoon because the morning session is for the seniors age 15 to 21..
I reached the school late for my first day, so when I go to the canteen where we suppose to gather. When I reached there I see no one there, I really felt terrified. just my luck i think, a prefect just passing by and see me standing dumb there. she brought a student that late just like me with her. Its a coincident the student i suppose to be my classmate. Her name is Shahirah Abu Bakar. When we enter the class, every eyes were looking at us. we said sorry for being late to our homeroom teacher name Mrs Tan Lay Hoon. we sit at the back because all the place have being taken by other..

I still remember,
both faiz sit in front of me, Emi my right with ...(i forgot) and in front of him is Moon and Cipah.
my back is Afiqah and Elia. the first person spoke to me is Emy. He introducing himselft and asking to borrowed my rubber. Moon at that time really dont like me because I'm quite a clumsy person. she really cold to me but now she really close to me. Cipah still like the old one. but most of my classmate have change but its cool because the change for good and when we hung up, we still acting like the old we.. the noisy, the kecoh, the gossiping and many more attitude..

I LOVE U ALL!

LET ME DO THIS ALONE!!!

alloo beauty!

i just don't know what to call u guys..
just stick with beauty for awhile until i find the right word..

today no so happy day for me..
I'm asking my sister to go for intensive class because i will st in important exam next year.. its bout my life and career.. but they just told me they will never agreed to it because i never ever in my life when to places without my parent send and fetching me to my destination... so they said i will never know with bus i'm going to take.. maybe some strangers will kidnap me and bring me to thailand.. and more lame excuse..

i just want for this once for them to trust me to move on my own life..
its time for me to take this opportunity to stand on my own.. I know they just worrying my safety and so on, but give me the chance to prove to them... its not like will go to some bad place.. i just want to study that all! even my dad don't act like them...

I'm missing my parent now..
when they will get back..
T____T

my new personal show off diary!

ooooyea!!

After many thing I'm going through just to created my account to make this blog, finally its created! of course with some help with my friend Cipah(I now she'll be mad to me if she read this)...

I'm just felt jealous to my friends who have build their own blog about centuries ago. After thinking about a week, I decide to just go for it without any hesitation(felt like I'm doing something bad).
Now the big issue one! the reason I'm created this blog is

• many of us will say I'm created this to share story, to share this, that and whatsoever more.. to me, I'm just wanna write something.. Its up to you wanna read or not. Just pretend that I'm like to write and ignore my language and my style to write(we all have theway to say something right? just don't easily jugging people.
• second..... I think i just want this blog to the place to split my everything. Like my hapiness, my anger, my sadness and lots of other human emotion have(not going to list all of it)
• hey! i just can't think other reason anymore!

so that my reason..

hurm! what else ha??
oyeah! just ignore my mistake in writing. I'm not that good in English.
owh! forgot.. i'm not going to use on English in my blog. Maybe I'll use Manglish=Melayu+english
or sometime I'm will use other language.. Hey! not that I'm not proud of my National language.. It just to learn using others also.. we all One Malaysia maaaa..
maybe I'll be using Korean and japanese also..(I'm such and addict to this country.. Dont ask me why.. Ijust love it)
so.. this my intro for my newly made blog.. so long !